This song took more time than any other on the album to finish. One of the detriments that comes with setting no boundaries on your experimentation is that you have infinite possibilities, which can be overwhelming at times.
For me, the first five minutes are like a dreamlike childhood nostalgia sequence. It's just diving deeper from where we were at the end of No More. For me those 5 minutes are like a recapping over childhood, all the perceptions we have on the world, the beliefs we adopt, the experiences we have and how they shape up. The movements of the music are just the different cycles and experiences of familiarising with being on this planet.
5:00 to me is like a sudden fast forward. We catch up to the present after looking over childhood. All this stuff happened, and here's what it led to. It's basically like 'ok, I've processed this place, this life, and it's a traumatic nightmare and I can't handle it'. The section after that to me represents finding the Law of Attraction, like oh cool, think happy thoughts, everything's wonderful, and the aftermath is... I don't know how to describe what it means to me unless you've experienced it. It's like feeling trapped by your shadows, you can't escape, you are destined to suffer, life fucking sucks, the universe fucking sucks, this whole thing is just a tragic mistake and there's nothing you can do. It's one of the most intense musical moments I've ever heard. It's a musical expression of the feeling that everything has just been too much to handle, for too long, and eventually something has to give, and it does. Everything falls completely apart. It's a sonic representation of being pushed too far, going beyond the threshold.
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