The manifestation of this song really confirmed for me that it was time to commit an album to catharsis. I wrote Fortress Falling in a very short time, everything was ready to come out, I just had to commit to letting it manifest and so it did in no time.
This is also the first Chii song to ever feature 'proper' vocals. All of the Chii stuff has unrecognisable vocals, that I manipulated and turned into synth sounds or whatever, but this is, while still unconventional, actual vocals and words. Including vocals wasn't a conscious decision, it just felt right for the 3 songs on the album with vocals. I don't feel comfortable singing/screaming, but I have to follow my artistic urges.
I also want to address the unorthodox way in which this song flows. We start with the ambient intro which, for me, sets a tone of discomfort and a sort of weird vibe I associate with the subconscious mind. For me that intro is right off the bat telling the listener 'we are going to a weird place right now, be ready'. It's a dive into all of these murky shadows.
After that things get a little crazy. I had to let the music be free and disjointed. I didn't want to try to contain or limit these emotions that wanted to come out. I felt that this was the way they wanted to manifest and so this is what came out. It makes sense really. The emotions and thoughts that fuelled this song were brutal. I don't think a 4/4 rhythm could capture that sort of brutality. The most brutal things in nature aren't 4/4, think about it - being trampled to death by a stampede of buffalo, or having a seizure, falling down stairs, high speed car crashes, whatever - brutally heavy experiences jolt you about uncontrollably, so that's what this song does. You aren't meant to get it. You're meant to just experience it and let it destroy you.
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