This album has no light at the end of the tunnel. The first two went through so many highs and lows and ended on epic highs. This one just couldn't go that way. I would have been forcing it. I couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel when I was writing this. This is just a sad song. I just wanted to give my sadness an outlet.
I wrote the piano part for this song, and when I sat to record it, I had an urge inside me to keep playing after I'd finished the piece, so I did. I ended up letting the piece descend into total chaos, and at the end you can hear me slam the piano lid down. The spontaneous moments on this album really make it special for me. I can't imagine the album ending any other way than it does now. It wouldn't be right for it to end on a beautiful albeit sad note. It ends with ugliness. I could see no light when I was making this album. Everything was dark, everything was ugly, so that's where the album leaves us. Hopeless.
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